rough weekend

this past weekend was my son's birthday party... not so great on the food scale and no exercise at the gym... just active with my son... and we still have cupcakes and other goodies still in our house! need to try to stay away! i gotta get them packed up tomorrow.  i will be back to the gym tomorrow - adam is gone to valdosta for training, so aiden will go from one day care to another so i can get my workout in.... time for the mommy guilt to slip in... (it's just a week - well 4 days) i'm trying to get to work earlier in the mornings so that i can leave work by 4:30.

a friend commented on one of my pictures from this past weekend that i need a new pair of jeans because i was swimming in the pair that i was wearing. YAY!! although i can't be buying new clothes every 10 lbs gone so it'll have to wait a bit more.... but i did have adam dig out my smaller clothes so that i can hang up my skinny jeans to help motivate.

tomorrow i start a 21- day meditation challenge. i'm excited. i used to meditate every night when i was losing weight the last time. i think it's going to be good to get back into it.

happy presidents day!

today was a pretty good day... i was off work for presidents day.  adam went to work and aiden went to day care and i went to the gym!  i got on the arc trainer for about 30 minutes..... LOVE that machine!

and then i took RPM (Les Mills version of spin)  i haven't taken a spin class in over a year... but it wasn't bad at all... i actually really enjoyed it - i really wish they had spin at night other than tuesday and thursdays (BodyPump days) 

i'm pretty pumped that i've lost 12 lbs in the past month! i know that it's going to slow down now - but that is okay.  i know that i am doing this the right way - the healthy way - and i'm fine with that.  

Eating

So, I've been doing this for a few days now - counting my calories with the help of My Fitness Pal and working out with Jillian Michaels - 30 Day Shred.  I'm doing okay.  I'm still allowing myself treats within reason.  Weekdays are SO MUCH easier than weekends. I want to splurge on the weekends. When I'm home all I want to do is eat! So I try to stay busy as much as possible.

I have my weigh-in for work on Wednesday.... I'm looking forward to it actually.  I know that I know what I'm doing and I'm going to succeed at it.

I'm back....

with a VENGEANCE!

I have found my motivation once again and I'm going strong! We are doing a competition at work with the Center Managers and other Admin staff - always a plus - and for me, competition helps!!

I have started tracking my calories with My Fitness Pal and started Jillian Michaels 30 Day Shred. I am also training to run another 5k - Color Me Rad - on March 30th in Chattanooga! I just registered - can't wait!!

So I have my starting weight... I have 90 lbs to lose to get to my very first ULTIMATE goal... and then I'll re-evaluate to see if I want to lose any more. I have made myself a goal tracker - for each 10 lbs lost I will reward myself with something (mani, pedi, new workout shirt, etc.)

I also have my 30 day shred tracker to make sure I keep it up!

i'm down 5.4 pounds in about 2 weeks!

went to another nutrition class at the gym today - this one was about metabolism - it was a good class - i always get so motivated after something like that... now to keep it up!!

my biggest obstacle - my new schedule keeps me very busy and i forget to eat. i need to set an alarm to remind me to eat - so i don't get too hungry and over eat later.

whats different this time around

i was thinking about my last weight loss journey - and what's different this time around

besides the biggest one - aiden wasn't part of our family yet - there are more and i think they are worthy of looking into

tracking/journaling - i'm not writing down my food... why not? time - which has to be just an excuse - i have downloaded an app on my phone to help so that it won't take much time - i just have to make myself do it.

meditation - i spent time every evening... meditating and reading my bible - i'm not doing either... why not? after work and the gym - i come home and get aiden to bed and shower and collapse on the couch - sometimes i eat or not - and i usually zone out and watch TV - i need to start back in my spiritual journey - i need to meditate - i need to be reading my bible - i need to be doing my devotionals

adam - he's not here - so it adds a lot more to my plate having to do everything myself... there really is no remedy for this - i just have to wait for him to return this late summer.

i'm eating decently - i'm working out 3-4 times a week - i should be losing... slowly - but still losing - and i'm not. i can do something about 2 of these... tracking/journaling and meditation.

i really need to work on these - i need to get myself healthy - not just for me but for my son. i feel so good when i work out and when i eat good, i just need to do it.

Ugh

I know I haven't been posting here and that isn't good - keeping all my thoughts down on paper was one thing that helped with my weight loss before.

I am at a standstill it seems like - I had a bit of a health scare (personal stuff - but it's all good now) I know I won't do well when Adam is home - so I'm hoping to get back at it when he leaves again.