whats different this time around

i was thinking about my last weight loss journey - and what's different this time around

besides the biggest one - aiden wasn't part of our family yet - there are more and i think they are worthy of looking into

tracking/journaling - i'm not writing down my food... why not? time - which has to be just an excuse - i have downloaded an app on my phone to help so that it won't take much time - i just have to make myself do it.

meditation - i spent time every evening... meditating and reading my bible - i'm not doing either... why not? after work and the gym - i come home and get aiden to bed and shower and collapse on the couch - sometimes i eat or not - and i usually zone out and watch TV - i need to start back in my spiritual journey - i need to meditate - i need to be reading my bible - i need to be doing my devotionals

adam - he's not here - so it adds a lot more to my plate having to do everything myself... there really is no remedy for this - i just have to wait for him to return this late summer.

i'm eating decently - i'm working out 3-4 times a week - i should be losing... slowly - but still losing - and i'm not. i can do something about 2 of these... tracking/journaling and meditation.

i really need to work on these - i need to get myself healthy - not just for me but for my son. i feel so good when i work out and when i eat good, i just need to do it.